Do you ever feel like getting away?

Right now I am almost done my homework. It is 1:09 am in the morning. I am going to be tired tomorrow, but it's OK because I sort like the feeling of being tired. Right now my self-confidence is not very high. I feel kinda dumb right now. I feel like I am smart, but only ordinary kinda smart. Not change the world kinda smart. I am socially awkward at school. But it's OK because I get good grades. I'm the "smart one". I'm not very pretty, and I'm not athletic, but I'm smart. And right now I feel dumb. As you can imagine, this doesn't feel very pleasant. I should really get some sleep. Right now is one of the times that I wish I was somewhere else. I have this whole little fantasy world that I like to escape to, and I want to share it. If you don't watch Star Trek this will make no sense to you, and I know I can go on about Star Trek some times and if you are not interested in Star Trek please do think that this all I will talk about. I promise to talk about more serious things but as I said it is one in the morning and I can't think about anything very intelligent right now (not that Star Trek isn't intelligent and now I'm rambling, but again it's late). In case you are still here after reading that little ramble, here it is:

In my dream world I am the junior medical officer and also a biologist on the USS Enterprise (that's probably not even a real position. But in the show, they have said that their are two doctors on the ship and it would make sense to me that he/she would be called the junior medical officer.) Why the junior medical officer and not the senior medical officer? Because that position is already filled by my friend, Dr. Leonard McCoy. I am a member of a species which I can't think of a name for right now, but members of our species are empathic and telepathic, extremely logical but can still be passionate at times and long lived. Members of our species also have some ridges on our faces, and also pointed ears. On the show the women wore uniforms like this because it was the 60's:

But I imagine my self wearing something more like this:

(These are not my images. I saw these on a forum along time ago and saved the images on my computer because I liked them so much and I can't find the forum now, but if you know who's images these are I would love to give you credit for them. I really quite like them)

I can't imagine that it would be very easy to have anyone take you seriously wearing something like the first uniform. The second one is not exactly unisex, but it's better. I imagine my self being a respected member of the crew who saves the day some days , or helps Mr. Spock or Dr. McCoy save the day. I am one of the higher-ranking officers on the ship, and I make a good leader. My little fantasy world has a nice contrast to the real world, where I am sort of shy around some people and I feel pretty far down the social ladder. I am off exploring strange new planets and meeting new people with exciting new ideas in my dreams, as opposed to my real life were most of time I see little of the world beyond my small little town.

I want to end by saying that writing it down and sharing my little world is quite nice. I'm not sure why. Maybe it makes it seem just a little more real if I share it. I also want to say that I'm sure we all have little dream worlds that we escape to to help cope with life.

Good night very one.

-Madeleine